Thats My Life

Today give back Trial Exam marks oh .... AH SO NEHHHHH .... ~

S1 - 83

M1 - 85

Biz- 56

Econ - 60 ...

All is okay , business i admit i dint study much though ...:(

But the econ ...i improved from 45-60 ...haha so happii ... but the bad thing is she is not doing very well in her exam ... so neutralised the feeling le ...

Another thing not satisfy is the economy teacher ... saw me rise my hand but act dint see , ask her question she give me cold answer and sonetime ask me back (if i know the answer i also wun ask u lah , what for u be a teacher ? =_= ) ... dissapointed ...

Hope my mum wun scold me lah ... grrrrrr T_T

Tomorrow is wednesday ... baskin robin maybe ?? haha...

So unlike me ...last time i will not even think of baskin robin or wadsever luxury ice-cream will not come into my mind , but this few days keep aiming baskin robin ... for wednesday haha (NOT HAEGAN DAEZ CAUSE ITS OUT OF REACH :( )

Just back from youth alpha camp .... got mixed feeling , witnessed the beauty of christianity again ... but i know its not the time yet ...nowhere near to it ..but i will still listen and understand it , cause it doesnt harm me at all knowing more things about different religion ... i pray to God sometimes ^_^

Bad thing is the time so tight ...make me not enough sleep ..sigh ....but it's okay cause its once in a while .. Btw , genting is still soo cold , cant see it affected by the climate yet ...HAHAHA ...keep sneezing every morning ...luckily there is a mouth cover ,thanks x)

Hope can go to genting , not by trip ... but plan myself , cause its soo hard to go out to overnight cause of school studies , college time so tight and plenty of stufffssss...

Nothing to say on our college , don't give car go in to drop or pick up students ...make some parents so frustated ...what man ? what for pay so much and yet no permission to enter and fetch son/daughther ... so dissapointed , reli hope the system will change ... 改善!!!!!! >_< ergh

And you ... let anger run through u ... i dont wanna argue with u cause of 1 friend , and u know i will not sacrifice frenship or wadsever ...no matter who the person is ...

I hope u will know , maybe not now ....

If there reli is no choice , we be frens ? be siblings ? or be enemy ? or u hate me ???

Why must ask me to choose between 1 ?

I dont want the relationship we obtained is by sacrifying a frenship and doing something wrong ... i know how u feel , i also want u to understand my personality and my situation ..

My friend...is not important as you say to me ...just that i don't wanna lost anyone around me .. simple as that ... and for you , you hate it for hating you .... i don't know how these things happen and the root of the problem ... tried to save it .. jst felt so wasted ... forgive me

You know today u rub your feet on the road and knock the wall how i feel ? Enough le ... stop all these thing ... dont wanna see you hurt yourself anymore ... sorry ___ . . . .

Friday

My QT marks ... business 69 , econs 46 , maths 76 =(

Have to work harder ... study harder ...

Today is friday , jz back from college , capturing video for malaysian studies ... ..

After shower .. realise both side of my hands have blue-black ..pain ,but pain is small compare to yours. .. hope can reduce it from happening again nxt week :)

Today missed CF le , sorry yea for screwing things up....don't know how to say out ... so jz type it here,hope u undersand :)

Johny English Reborn !! Must watch , gonna watch it SOON with her ! ^^

rain

Finally no rain le , after all those thunderstorms ... finally saw the sunshine ... slowly :)

A day to regret but HAPPY at the same TIME!

Today go ping pong with her and college friends...
Who is she? OF course is my only dear Chow Eva lahh...
Walao at 1st say wanna go eat Smelly Taufu but end up both in Challenger play ping pong xD
OMG , i din expect u to play sport together with me since the 1st day i know you...honest speaking lah xD

But before that other than ping pong , we also go for captain ball...which is the intercohort games ...
Sorry to my dear for making her hand bengkak ...or i can say its a swollen finger...but there is something good bout it , u dont have to scare your ring dun suit ur finger le , jz wear it on the swollen finger ! XD ^^ jk jk ....
And YOU,kena so many many sunlight also still wanna paksa diri go out with me ... 真拿你没办法,谁叫我将爱你?? No next time k ??


Today after ping pong we go have a drink then while doing some parking the car went into a slope , back of the wheels....then nid help ...then i am panic , then i lost my cool ...then i dont know what to do .... ... but her,she dint panic ,i dont know why...no time to think so much jz think what will happen to both of us .. very scared...dont dare to think back of it anymore
In some kind of way , we managed to get help and help the car out ...on the process i get inner support from her,at least i realised that ....was jst very happy ...you make me realised once again how much u meant to me...

Blank in mind , and thinking if the car incident realised by parents ..and affect our relationship...not jst simple impact,but very very big impact cause there is no any way of explaining...
What will i become without u ?

After that i started to releived after solving the problem...Thx dear,for giving me a calm state of mind throughout the incident... :(


But later i created one more problem myself ...mistake that is worse than lying to you , i am regret to myself , its not a right way of treating u ,it's totally wrong, i know its my fault ...no nxt time.
Wrong for my action, but the another reason i felt guilty and regret is i broke your promise to yourself... a simple yet meaningful promise that u kept for such a long time...


At the very moment ... i was just thinking ... Jet'aime ... :)

Jst felt like adding this pic to this post ....will make it look nicer ..

what u want

I was wondering what u want actually..?
u were treating me as if nothing had happened ytd...

Yeah..u saw some thing bad bad bout last time , how flower ...how bad the attitude...how unserious am i towards feelings....
But i alrdy determine to change since the 1st day i go college ...but thr is still something missing ..

I am happy to know u , u are special in some funny way when i started to get closer to u...and you are the key i guess?
Changing my mindset like nobody does b4 ...
I am changing innerly day by day , and you r changing ur lifestyle too ^^

Its positive externalities to both , but i hope the last thing i can do is make u do ur homework...
HOMEWORK and REVISION !! u better do it i tell u ...someday i'll make u have that kind of attitude , wait and see :)

Malaysia Study

Today Malaysia Studies quite fun .... learnt many undisclosed history x)

Sorry lah , make you nag 1 hours ... jz testing ur patience ... ^^

Today , talked bout what to do when a little tree grew up . . . . i love the story , better still if its not a story xD
But i don't like the way u talk , say till like saying bye to each other but the heart still love each other likdat ...


Today ... din't take any picture with the phone ...
But ...luckily , i still manage to find 1 picture of us for today ...


Hehe ... .. ... counted as 1 i think? :)

I know studies cant be affected by relationship problem ... but i really cant control myself ... Cant concentrate during IELTs today ... who am i ? what am i doing actually ?

I just know i wan her to be happy , nothing more ..nothing less ... i dont have the right to ask for forgiveness i know , she know that too ... Even she give i also wont feel deserving

I felt relieved , happy and relax at the same time ... i told everything , what happen to me last time...and the feeling is like letting down a burden ... Congratulation , you are the first one to make me say out what i don't wanna mention for so long .. thanks , I LOVE YOU!!

Let me go ... yeah ... luckily u dint do that easily.......

When we first together , my mind is thinking you are special from other girl , but i need time to prove what i think is true .... dont think onli u that is observing me all the while , i also keep observing what u did de u know ?
The 'mini green love' u make in macaroon , it shud be red but u put it green just to suit my weird taste for colour...
The coin u gave me , it shud have some memory to you i guess?
The medicine u put in my locker , i dun tink i can finish using it even after i graduate from MCKL ... ?
U oways pull my ear ... i am not angry but happy instead , its a way of showing ur care ...hope today is not the last day u pull my ear ....
Our locker key , i gave u mine , but i haven have ur locker key...will u ever make 1 of ur locker key and give it to me?
In econ class (the only class we are in together) , you help me copy important note when u see i am lazy or slacking...and pay attention when i dint use ruler to draw line,did u concentrate on what teacher is talking about huhh???
And your lame joke , lamest person i ever seen...
You are very clumsy u know ? U dint realise it ...but u always lost your thing , and u found it ...and make urself kelam kabut for nothing ..
And when i help u to take ur bag , its very 幸福,not 辛苦...i hope today is not the last day u let me carry ur bag ...

I lost to you le , realise i cant go on without your love and support ... will take a long time to recover if u let me go like this.. I will honest to you , i really will...
Hope i can gain back your trust ...
Hope i can go back to few weeks ago....
Hope we can be like this ....


See the smile so sincere ...
I dun wanna leave a scar between us , i want to be happy with you...back to last time
Give me a chance to change kay ?


u change my iphone picture away , then only u can change it back...i dont have the right to do so...but please change it back for me.. :(

Dun give up..